Thursday, April 19, 2012
Somewhere from falling back. The multiple vantage point awareness from one to the other. I continue to wake in fear, not fear, and indifference. The video record holds an image, a non image. The disappointment is held in the air, forgotten in the air. New pleasures evade and taunt the dutiful servant. The perversion blesses the saint and sinner forgets, calls in the air, holds hands in the air and witnesses nothing.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
woke up to this. sent this home. got slapped in the face by this. listen to music because of this. crying because of this getting high because of this. not getting high because of this. allowing this to break me. hating you and the others out of fear. collapse. the spinning world tells me your eyes and lips and hair cause extreme anxiety in the bar. staring at the wall at the lights at the ice at the paper is not like staring into your eyes.